MY BOAT MY LIFE

im sinking my self in to the deep ocean of sadness

breathless, numb and soak with despair

chaos comes into my mind

asking why and asking what

what is fault after all i have done

swimming in the lake of nowhere

finding the light of happiness

why it is they need to paddle my own raft

i can paddle it till my day is drop

they don't need to dictate

nor to judge on what i need

or decide on my fate to be

i know they only want the best in me

but it is hard to see any, if they blindfolded me 

why they don't let me see it with my bare eyes indeed

i have my heart, my own heart to follow

just be my guide but not block my road on

i know that it is hard

to accept me for what i have

but this is me, i have my own boat of life

if i lost, i know i can go back

 im not a rebelling, but i'm crying

i'm not mad, but i'm hoping

someday you'll understand my undertakings

please let me learn in this life i need